Reading all my spaces work agian  tonight..and all the days and stories of my trip connected again .so long way that i already finished.still lots of storeis that i donnot show on..sometimes open the heart to show in public is kind of burdern for me.

also i know..this spaces i  made for my son and  grandson and grandgrand son maybe..let them know what their mum and grandmather did before.

And i cannot believe i did a circle .i came back to the origne point that i start again.

signs..

but whatever,to walk .to see.to feel.

when others say i am stupid.and tell me to follow the rules of this world..why my heart always not agree that.and push myself into a kind of way for drifting

Anyway,if i still cannot understand what i get from travelling..one thing i am sure i get the coupon: my english made a big pace.

NO thanks here.

but with sorry.

And i donnot know how to present my real feelings.kids,see what will happen next........

今天是外婆去逝一周年。

 

回家已经一个 星期多了 ，今天才正式出门逛街，看着熟悉却又如此的 陌生的城市，我发现我自己的 意念已经不知道飘到哪里了。

接到ALLA 的电话，我们兴奋地交谈着9月份的 计划，喜欢出发，无论去哪个方向。

下午整理旅行的照片，才发现，有好多照片 和 故事没有 和人分享。

于是，开始整理那些照片，以及脑海里 的 回忆。

 

 

 24th June   2008 . Singapore Changi Airport

I am kinda of person always try to find something from the books..the strories.the truth.the theme .the path to go .the answer of the life.and more ....and more...

 

(1) THE KITE RUNNER   Khaled hosseini  
      i cried again and again for this book.after this book,i understand the culture of musilim.there was a kind of love that i respect much!

      "For you,a thousand times over".......

(2) LIKE THE FLOWING RIVER   Paulo coelho
   
     You can discover your soul more.from his words, i think more,not only future,but about God.religion and what that refleted to us.
                           The art of the sword

keeping calm: anyone who understands the meaning of life knows that things have neither a beginning nor an end,and that there is ,there fore,no point in worrying,Fight for that you believe in whithout trying to prove anything to anyone;maintian the same silent calm of someone who has had thecourage to choose his own destiny.
                  this applies to both love and war.
allowing your heart to be present: anyone who trusts in his owers of seduction ,in his ability to say the right thing at the right time,in the correct use of the body ,becomes deaf to the "voice of the heart",this can only be heard when we are in complete harmoney with the world around us,and never when we judge ourselves to be he centre of the universe
                  this applies to both love and war.
finding the right master:our path will always cross tat of other people who,out of love or pride,want to teach us something,how can we distinguish the friend from the manipulator?the answer is simple:the true teacher is not the one who teaches us the ideal path,but the one who shows us the many ways of reaching the road we need to travel if we are to find our destiny.Once we have found that road,the teacher can not help us naymore,because its challenges are unique.
                   this applies to neither love nor war.but unlesss we understand that,we will never get anywhere.
escaping from threats:we often think that the ideal attitude is that of giving up one's life for a dream.nothing could be further from the truth,in order to achieve a dream.we need t preserve our life,and we must,there fore,know how to avoid those things that threaten us.the more we plan our steps,the more chance there is that we will go wrong,because we are failing to take into consideration four things:other people ,life 's teachings,passion and calm.the more we feel we are in control of things,the farther off we are from controolling anything.A threat does not issure any warning,and a swift reacion cannot be planned like a sunday afternoon walk. therefore,if you want to be in harmony with our love or with your fight,learn to react rapidly,through educated observation,do not allow your supposed experience of life to transform you into a machine.use that experience to listen always to "the voice of the heart" even if you donto agree with that voice is saying,respect it and follow its advice: it knows when to act and when to avoid action.
                  this applies to both love and war.

(3) BRIDA        Paulo coelho
     This a story about a irish girl to become a witch and how to find her soulmate and know the meaning of the life.it says.you can have not only one soulmate.
     what i like the most.that the magus told brida finally when they said goodbye:

"then you came,and i understood all of this,you came to free me from the slavery i myself had created,to tell me that i was free to return to the world and to the things of the world.i understood everything i needed to know ,and i love you more than all the women i have ever known,more than i loved the woman who,quite unwittingly,exiled me to the forest.i will always rememer now that love is liberty,that was the lesson it took me so many years to learn,that is the lesson that sent me into exile and now sets me free again"

 

(4) FURTHER ALONG THE ROAD LESS TRAVELLED     M.Scott peck
   
       his another famouse book << the road less travelled>>.these two books show me the path ,the way to deal with everything.to understand the world around me.and the people.

 

                               The truth is that i want it
                                and the price i must pay
                                is to ask the question again and again and again.

9:50 pm Lahore.Airport .23th June 2008

Music: Avil When you gone.

All memory back.tangling in my mind..again and again.

i took deep breath.after 5 mins the staff requested money from me for leading me into the airport ,the doctor came.but he couldnot speak english.my stomach arching .i though that came from the salad i took in KFC this moring.I moved to a corforable place to avoid the pakistan girls to ask me lots of questions.

This melody remind me when i was in the hotel in Quetta.a frustrated and tried wing ,cring when watched the TV with this song.

But now.this one lead me to a peace mood.finally i growed up.i am more stronger.i though i was very strong to face the all problems when i was in Peshwar.But this month and half taught me lots.i wasnot that strong !i saw my weakness.my flaws my default..i am just a common person who have thyself passion and desire .

I thought i could do lots of things with my strong character,i was great to take all.i was brave to follow my heart to do things that i devoted all my energy.but life told me ,you were wrong.you  just a normall person with a weak soul.when i saw myself ,i know myself more.i understand what i should change.failure told me how to grow up.

I forgive all,truely.

I found the my  path to go the destination that i want to go with my soul and my heart.

From one mountian ,i saw another one.then i know my strength more.

Thanks all.

I growed up.

Life with difficult and pain.and these guide me to the place i called "home ".

 

p.s  i should be always smile to the world.these girls followed me to talk with me..finally gave me a suprise gift before they onboardign the airplane.

       wing still on road.

These one month and half was the hell and nightmare for me here....finally say goodbye to all..and i am free bird again.

what lost never back.keep walking .....

the life is :

A rotten banana: that is the life that have been and gone.and which was not used to the full and for which it is now too late.

Green banana:this is the life that has yet to happen ,and for which we need to wait until the moment is right.

Ripe banana:this is the present moment learn how to gobble it up without fear or gulit.

 

JUST FLY AGAIN!

I was so happy to meet the pepople again in china who i met on travelling!who i shared my happy with together ..and again!

First i met Joon from korea in Shanghai Who i met in Varanaci india .

Then met Shu in Guangzhou Who i stayed with her in same hotel in Tehran Iran.

Then Today,met Alla and Egypt in ShenZhen .I travelled with them in India.

So cool....people.we meet and we will meet again..and again.....

The world is small...: )

 

This song to memory my friend who in the heaven---AOM.

This melody always in my mind..everytime it visit .i always remember you .aom.the time we were together ,dancing in the club....and your moving and your smile....

and you always say: same same...........for you .............................

Be happy there!: D

we will meet again in one day....

昨天晚上11：41PM,很突然接到一个电话。2年前上海易徒认识的一面之缘的朋友，从没联系过。突然之间，接到他的电话我很吃惊。也很奇怪2年了他竟然还留着我的联系方式。

他的电话，让我想起很多事情。2年的时间，那么多的改变，自己的生活这么DRAMA，两年前的自己绝对不会想到今天的路程，我已经走到了这里。现在的自己回过头看原来的我，也只是微笑，原来，时间这么快，这么快，这么快，这么快的带走了那么多东西。。。

前几天烦恼的事情我突然间能放下了，从过去的自己身上我明白了，命运是选择的结果。。。我也更明白我自己。。。

我没有理由去埋怨任何人，任何事情，因为THAT’S ME。。。我就是我。未来仍然太遥远。过去只是过去。有的只是现在 。

对不起，走的太快，忘了和人说再见。

谢谢，走的太久，疲惫于感谢。

永远 不想停下，我愿意属于天空，如果这意味着寂寞。

Hello,wing.....................................

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Music U and Ur hand  from  PINK...i remember ashton....this cute little boy who was the first one say "i love you " on the road! and watching his dancing vedio.....wowo..this cute boy...i really miss.....

 

And the cash memo from BLUE FODS PVT.LTD that alla and me had small icecream in bombay inida..that we spent 135RS for two..(sosos expensive one in my travelling..actully just 27RMB).

 

And the cash memo that alla ,egypt and me had so big dinner in udaipur india.................so big thali and alla's favariate "kchifried rice".........

 

And the invoice of the backpack that i bought in jaipur india.......3000rs.....

 

And the palm reader 's letter ......in udaipur....

And all tickets that i keep...and all cards ..............................................so far so close.........................................

.

CRH

 

I love the spring time of west lake of Hangzhou......walking around ......relaxed......dream future.....perfect...

 

 

Shanghai-------fashion city,"i cannot regenize you everytime i come to you ......."

 

A gataway of hot hot summer in pakistan.

Now at home..my travelling already ending...

but no.....4th May..fly again..

and maybe here..just with a "。"

because ....when i am on road again..there is another one to go somewhere i donnot know......................................................................................

Goodbye........................

Thanks my family to support me..thanks all my friends who i met on the road and who care me wherever i am...

Thanks myself...still have courage to fly again..............

Met him on the street who stayed the same hotel as me.asked me to for a coffe.when i was sad back from the pakistan embassy that i was told they cannot issue the visa for me.

i was suprised my english improved so quickly.when i was in bangkok ,talked with jaco and stu.and their austrilia friends.i can understand but i cannot show my words.but this time..i can understand jason's london accent and dicussed with him with lots of views about politics and etc.

so we went to see the US embassy ,to shot the picture in secret.he also said to go to see the cemetremy on the surb.i agreed.i need go somewhere to let me forget visa.

that's so big placs.lots of people lies there so quiet............................................

at night,he knocked my door to say goodbye .he went back home..we didnot leave any contact to each other.because long travelling .i know sometimes you met someone .shared some views and have to say goodbye....and that's forever...

..

Back Tehran.same hotel.same receptionist.same places.same net cafe.but different emotions in my mind.when i was in baddar abbas .i didnot know how hard to get the vsia.then i knew.stayed in Tehran almost half month for fighting to get the visa.i was exhausted.

thanks warrior Yuan and Xu.Met them again,and offered lots of things to me. pisa in villa..the extremely beautiful night view of Tehran from Yuan's prado.and linsened the music that i love very much "Boulevard of broken dreams".and chinese dishes..............

sometimes i donot know what things i fighting for ...and i found i fighting for nothing...

.

从SHRIAZ 到BADDAR ABBAS，9小时夜车。吻别汽车站帮我找车的伊朗女孩，我靠在车窗上，心情荡到谷地。旅途上我总是让自己偶尔的完全脆弱。看了两场伊朗电影。其中一部，我又哭了。我努力让自己听情歌不流泪，看电影不唏嘘。总是做不到。电影说的一个男人好不容易和自己心爱的女人结婚。妻子去一个地方做义工，突然地震，失去了全部的记忆。丈夫努力寻找，在咖啡观驻唱，得到一个女人的赏识，成了明星。而她的妻子生下了他的孩子，和他在同一个城市，彼此很多次遇见却不知道他是她的丈夫。他也渐渐忘记，和发掘他的女二号生活在一起。女二号帮他拍电影选小演员，竟然选到他女儿。当女二号发现事实真相的时候，她很挣扎，最后她留书给那个男的希望在机场见面一同离开。男的飞奔到机场，女二号看着他，想叫又不想叫。。。最后终究躲在角落里流眼泪。。这个男人好幸福啊。。世界上两个女人这么爱他。为了他付出了那么多。最后是大团员结局。
一夜无眠，凌晨到达这个港口城市的时候，这个城市还在熟睡当中。我背着背包去找LP 上说的便宜的旅馆。不幸的事，又一次被LP 出卖，旅馆不再有DORM，也不愿意让单身女客留宿。没有办法，背着沉重的背包，走过一条大街，找警察，警察帮我找，找了一个56USD 的太贵了。我又重新背背包去其他地方，最后找到了QOOM HOTEL。一到那边还没有空的房间，我在大厅睡了半小时，实在太累了，一住进房间我就睡觉。
我的心绪很复杂，在这个港口，眺望波斯湾，我做了我人生的重大决定，取消去DUBAI ，回PAKISTAN。
停留了一个晚上，前台的伊朗男孩子，突然间说有个SUPRISE 要给我，隔天我离开的时候，他突然给我的礼物让我吃惊，和他并没有多多的交谈。礼尚往来，我送了他我在巴基斯坦买的马甲。
BADDAR ABBAS。。。。。一个遗憾留在那里。