~A Road Less Travelled~

Sorting out my belongings ..i am travelling again ..go and back ..used to that ...i donot know why tonight so desire to want to lisen one song from one movie that i watched in india : OM SHANTI OM.

 

 

when the melody came out from the computer! all my skin suddenely woke up!!!

INDIA.....

 

i lost words.lots of momories back .....god..2007..and now 2009.....why the time past so fast ...........................................................

 

这开始的音乐老是环绕在我脑海，以及在印度的日子。我爱印度电影。

 

为什么会在一年多以后在另一个国度被另一个国度的文化感动到想哭？

 

My spainsh friends want to visit china on June .they want to see Tibet .so i checked Egypt \s website .she went there 2 times.tried to find some valuable informations .

And i saw all! Thanks Egypt .I never know you write so many articles about me .and said lots of words to me

When i saw that one you wrote on 4th May 2008 .tears welling in my eyes.you know ..all memories back ..and i saw 14th Sep. 2008, ,yes.i jumped to iran from thailand that i suprised you so much ...

sorry that i didnot go to your blog too much to see your heart .everybody have too much things about themself .

Hugs...

i was so happy to meet you and alla in inidia  : ) .

 

Hugs..

 

we always walk on our road to go the place we will go but please be happy and belive  and keep the hope !

life is not bad that you never know what wil happen tomorrow also have to forget what already happened ..to seize PRESENT.that we only have!

Make your rules .and run your world!

 

Hugs..

 

00:10 istanbul turkey   tonight i miss one friend so much!

 

 

00:30 am Istanbul time .i couldnot fall asleep..got up ,open the laptop...turn on my MSN.and i am here.The airplane ticket is in my bag that i took today .Finally .i will go back china again .

This month ,i was happy i think .i got so great birthday party that i never had before .went the club which one recommoned by cayce with narcho and jesus.danced and laughed ,the waiter brought the candles ,that make that night so romantic when the electiricity just gone .after narcho told some turkish that day was my birthday.all the turkish sang "happy birthday " to me .and the candle was my birthdy candle !:D

i walked istical cad everyday ,i like to go KABATAS to see the seaview .i like the life here..i am the queen of my life .

i think i will miss all when i go back china .

Though my life always up and down .changs so drama .i learn from life .and master how to run my life to the place that i want to go .

one song called : never look back  ,

i think i have to keep on walking ,but when sometimes i turn back to wink to the past just because i expect my future too much .............

 

很想写日记，但是真的坐下来，却不知道从那个简单的字开始。

我怕我以坐下来就是不停的回顾，这回让我感到害怕，害怕自己在老去，我在成长，我很想拒绝成熟。但是这是我要走的方向。

最近发生很多事情。

我努力让自己习惯自己的高低起伏的人生。

相机和手机都无法被这台饱满奇异病毒的电脑识别。所以没有照片记录。一直以来我都喜欢用照片和简短的话来解释我眼中的世界。

最近自己也明白很多道理。这个世界不是非黑即白的世界。我很想让别人来了解我，但是我也明白，旅途中必须自己明白自己。

 

我发现我很想记录很多事情。很多美好的事情。以及不美好的事情。

四月的时候，去了一次中部，沿途的风景很漂亮，我也终于看到了大盐湖。也终于放下很多以前以为自己放步下的事情。

也许有时候看别人的人生，感觉看自己的过去。也许我们都不知道什么是爱，当我们奋力明白的时候。却是什么也做不了。因为爱不是简单的一个字。

我还是无法控制自己的购物欲。既然我打算让它放纵下去，那么我就要努力让自己有能力放纵。却发现我丢失努力的动力。

我让我的生活充满各色的活动。我喜欢被人喜欢。但是我知道这个世界总有不喜欢我的。

 

小妹回国了，我在土第一个朋友。CAYCE 离开ISTANBUL ，在土第一个我说了很多事情的人。大家都有各自的人生。我发现，我将永远是个背包客的时候，我突然间感到害怕，大家遇见又说再见。

和同屋参加他们的毕业晚会，记得很小的时候看港剧和好莱坞电影总是看到很多毕业晚会，那个时候很羡慕，很期待我的高中，高中没有满足我的这个向往。我就期待我的大学。当大学再让我失望的时候，我想我对此没什么追求了。终于晚了5年，我参加了一次。谢谢。我感觉自己很年轻。

 

和CAYCE 到她朋友一个波兰女孩的家，这个在中国住了7年的女孩子，能说流利的中文。她的家很漂亮，窗口可以看到无敌的海景。书房窗口看出去还可以看到欧亚大桥。CAYCE 说她的地方很有家的感觉。。是的。我想这是为什么我感觉很局促的原因。说不出为什么。

 

有时候觉得自己的很自信，和CAYCE 说话的时候，用的是三种语言。中文，英文，土耳其语。感觉很好。哇塞，真国际。当我发现我为生活奔波的时候，我发现自己什么都不是。

我相信一切却又怀疑一切。相信自己又怀疑自己。

 

好了。无论怎么的未来，用我自己的方式，每篇文章的结束语一定是激励自己保持乐观对待未来的。

看过去的自己，我觉佩服我自己，也觉得自己很可笑。

而，现在，所以很多东西，也只有时间能证明，给出最后的答案。而我，最终只是过客吗？

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My heart still poudering when i 'm sitting in front of the computer. iI still canot out of the excitement (or scared?)  from the adventure that i took in istanbul .

Today is labour day here,people made a strike.i saw in india before ,but never think it\s dangousers.ok.here the stroy goes:

this moring a girl called eva to our apartment ,classmate of my faltmate.i tried to go out to recharge my mobilephone ,she said she would like to go with me .for satfty considering .so when we got out ,we found lots of people haught out on the street.and unfornuately the street was blocked by police ,so we turned back ,the holicopter was making big noise up of us .suddently ,the street full of the smoke bumb,make people cry ,and smork moving fast,all the people runing to the outlet.we suddently no idea about this ,followed the people to go another street,and we found we cannot go back my apartment,( both two way of the road was blocked) we tried to go another place to my friend home ,but also ,blocked street ,we were rejected to pass by police.we headed to the seaside by advice from a police.at end of the street lead to the seaside ,a big tank blocked there!

" this is the first time i saw these in my life !"

"me too"

seaside: so peaceful: people lied down on the grass..sat at the teahouse,chaging laughing ..............what just happened like a dream and never appeared before..

 

1.mayis....2009........13:15--15:16........................................